Today is a hard post to share with you all because I am REALLY putting myself out there. Bare skin and all. That’s not even something I easily do around my husband.
But they say to conquer your fears you’ve got to face them right?
Well, here I am being honest and open with you all on.
Today I am talking about my struggles with Adult Cystic Acne and how I conquered it without taking ANY prescription creams or medications.
A few years ago, My Pale Skin Youtube came out with an eye-opening and emotional video: “You Look Disgusting.”
Em Ford is in a dark room reading comments that were left on her Instagram about her. From how perfect she looks to how could anyone stand to wake up next to her?
Whether you’ve never had a pimple in your life or you are a long-term sufferer like me, this video will get you right in the feels. Honestly, I can’t even bare to watch it because it evokes so many hard emotions to deal with.
I highly suggest everyone take a few minutes and watch You Look Disgusting. It brings awareness to your actions on social media as well as learning to accept and love yourself for who you are.
(Disclaimer: I am not a medical doctor and you should talk to a medical professional before stopping any pills or regimens.)
I remember being one of the only girls in 7th grade that was actually allowed to wear makeup. I started breaking out the second I hit puberty and the group of girls I ran with at the time weren’t very understanding.
Being on the cheer team and hanging with a certain crowd I felt like I had to be “hot”. And acne was so not hot.
As the years went on my acne never went away but it was never too dramatic either. I wouldn’t let many people see me without makeup on since I was a pro at disguising it. When a pretty bad breakout like on my lip or forehead would pop up, I found a way to stay home so I could ice it all day. By the next day, it was usually small enough to cover.
So acne has never been a stranger to me. But I always thought once I got out of high school it would clear away forever.
I was so wrong.
As I did get older my acne started to clear off my back completely but was hitting me pretty hard in the face.
But NOTHING compared to what would happen when I got off birth control.
GETTING OFF BIRTH CONTROL
I have very holistic beliefs and try to avoid medication at all cost. At 20 years old, after being on birth control since I was 13, I decided to get off it completely. I wasn’t in a relationship and I was curious as to how my body would react without it. I mean it’s not like I can take it forever so why not start detoxing now??
Well, that was the worst thing to EVER happen to my face.
At 20 years old my skin was the worst it’s ever been and no one could help me.
My skin was bad. My hair was oily. And my moods were worse than both of those combined. Isn’t it crazy what Birth Control does to us and how harsh the detox is?!
Being 20 and not wanting to feel the way I felt, I got back on birth control. However, it did very little for me.
The scars were already set in and the cyst wouldn’t leave my jawline.
Now 22 years old I thought I would never get through this. My self-esteem dropped and any confidence I had went out the window.
I was determined to find a solution. That’s when I stumbled upon Perfectly Posh.
OMP! (Oh My Posh) Their products were GODSENT! I never believed something could work as amazing and long-term as Perfectly Posh.
Perfectly Posh is a naturally based pampering company. They have so many vegan options, never test on animals, and don’t have any parabens added in the product. What’s great is their ingredients are full of words you can actually pronounce and understand (like coconut oil and peppermint).
My skin thanked me the minute I changed to Perfectly Posh. For the first time in two years, I actually had clear skin and it was staying that way.
(I mask about every 3 days and switch it up based on the needs of my skin and to avoid over drying)
A little goes a LONG way here and you only need to use a dime size amount. BFF is apart of the Look Natural line made with, you guessed it, natural ingredients and is also VEGAN!
My favorite masks are ‘All I’ve Avo Wanted’, Cackle Spackle and Pineapple Pick-Me-Up. I switched between the three every couple days to target different areas of my skin. I usually start the week with Cackle Spackle (a charcoal detoxifying mask) and then halfway through the week use the all night All I’ve Avo Wanted nourishing mask made with avocado and glycerin. It gives your skin the hydration it craves. Then I finish the week using the Pineapple Pick-Me-Up to tighten my skin and give it the perfect glow for the weekend.
If you did the “All I’ve Avo Wanted” mask then you can skip this step! BUT whether you mask or not, you should ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS MOISTURIZE. This is soooo important!!!
Did you know dry skin= more oil production & clogged pores??? MOISTURIZE!!!
The moisturizer I use from Posh is Moisturize 911. It is a tightening, brightening, and hydrating everyday moisturizer. It helps me lighten my complexion and acne scars and gives my skin a firming it needs. Made with coffee beans, coconut oil, and vitamin-C!
My clear skin lasted for a year and a half until I made some lifestyle changes Posh just couldn’t tackle. For one, we are trying to conceive so I had to get off birth control (again). Also, I took a new position at work and was under high stress.
My skin was dealing with a huge hormonal change as well as new pressure like I’ve never felt before.
After struggling for about 6 months, I decided I was going to try every tactic possible to clear up my skin once and for all. I don’t deserve to feel self-conscious or less than because of my skin. I am a headstrong, fun person to be around and I no longer want this life of hiding or feeling ashamed.
So I started the IPL treatments. According to Healthline.com, IPL releases light of many different wavelengths, like a photo flash, that penetrates down to the second layer of your skin (dermis) without harming the top layer (epidermis).
The laser helps lighten your pigment while killing any bacteria under the surface of the skin. It was a great option for me to stop new acne growths and lighten all acne scars!
IPL varies in price, I’ve seen it as high as $480 a session and as low as $180 a treatment which is what I paid. I found a WONDERFUL esthetician that was extremely knowledgeable in clearing/preventing acne and very careful with my skin.
I have had 6 sessions of the IPL and noticed a HUGE DIFFERENCE in acne growth, acne scars, and overall complexion of the skin.
Click here for an informative article on IPL Treatment.
In addition to the IPL treatments, I switched from my beloved BFF cleanser to African Black Soap. I watched a lot of videos and heard so many success stories that I just had to give it a try.
HOLY SH*T. THIS STUFF IS LITERALLY BLACK MAGIC!!!
African Black Soap has changed my life and I have no idea why I never heard of it sooner!!!
Product Description From Amazon:
“Your days of feeling embarrassed and ashamed are over!
*Discover the healing power of an age-old remedy that is improving the lives of thousands worldwide. Simple, yet incredibly effective, it’s healing powers are unmatched.
You will feel and see the difference immediately
*Handcrafted with 100% Organic Unrefined Shea Butter, your skin will be rejuvenated leaving it soft & smooth. Famous for it’s healing benefits Organic shea butter contains vitamins A and E which strengthens and repairs damaged skin. Widely used to heal sores, burns, scars, and to treat acne, dermatitis, psoriasis, and eczema. It also has anti-aging properties which promote cell renewal and diminish the appearance of wrinkles.
Soften and firm your skin with the power of Organic Cocoa Pod/butter. Containing anti-inflammatory properties & antioxidants that repair & renew damaged skin and fight free radicals.
Organic Palm Oil, Contains vitamin E & rich in antioxidants. Excellent for treating eczema, acne, burns, & reduces cell damage;
Organic Palm Kernel Oil, anti-bacterial/fungal properties high in lauric acid.
Organic Coconut Oil reduces wrinkles and repairs dry skin by reinforcing the skin’s lipid barrier to lock in moisture.”
There are a lot out on the market now but you HAVE to get natural organic African Black Soap or it defeats the purpose. Others on the market are filled with chemicals, dye, and fillers that take away all the healing and cleaning properties.
My favorite place to get ours is from Amazon. It’s like $13 for 1lb of it and both my husband and I use it. The 1lb lasts us about a month and a half which is a great deal!!
Please don’t be off put by the strange appearance of the soap (it looks like a space rock) because nothing has ever worked so incredible for my skin. My husband has severe eczema on his hands and this is the only soap he can use that doesn’t cause a flare up and actually leaves his hands feeling hydrated after the shower.
Make sure to follow up with moisturizer (my favorite: Moisturize 911) and I can promise you, you will see results in as little as a week.
Lastly, I want to talk about the only sure way we can cure adult cystic acne and that is by clearing up our thoughts. All physical dis-eases are directly related to our thoughts and emotions.
After reading You Can Heal Your Life (which I HIGHLY recommend) I started searching online for others who made the same correlations.
I came across a great article by Facingacne.com. The article stated, “When it comes to dealing with stress, the skin has its own “brain.” Just as the brain releases a chemical called corticotropin stimulating hormone when it senses stress to trigger the release of stress hormones by the adrenal glands, the skin also releases corticotropin stimulating hormone when it senses stress. This stress hormone activator in the skin sends a message to cells that store the inflammatory chemical histamine to break open the storage packets containing histamine. The histamine begins to dissolve nearby skin cells as if they were harboring a thorn or a splinter or an infection. The skin becomes redder and itchier and may break out in bumps, all because of heightened sensitivity in its nervous system.”
Very interesting to think about how all our cells are connected and maybe before we spend thousands of dollars on skin care procedures, maybe we should start within and clean up our thoughts.
Any issues with the face represent how you carry yourself and what you show to the world. Are you angry, bitter, or full of self-hatred? Do you lack gratitude, love, or compassion? Who are you when no one is looking?
You can probably find all of that out just by looking in the mirror.
Blackheads represent small outbursts of anger. When was the last time you snapped at someone? Think hard on this because small outbursts of anger can be road rage, how you treat a customer service rep or snapping at your spouse & kids. Those are all small outbursts of anger that linger inside of you, lowering your energy and ruining your skin.
Acne-cystic or pustular- represents the way you feel about yourself. This hit home for me because the times I was struggling with acne the worst, were also the times I was struggling to love and accept myself. I was angry with myself. I was angry with the circumstance. I was angry with the world. What came first, the acne or the thought? If you dig down deep inside I am confident you will all find the negative thoughts and actions are directly connected to your breakouts.
We cannot heal our bodies until we heal our minds. Affirmations, self-love, and compassion towards ourselves will get us there.
For more information on mental manifestations in the body, I highly suggest reading You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay. It will change your life.
Thank you for reading my kind-of rambling post. Hopefully, you found some new information, inspiration, or at least enjoyed the post!
Remember, if you are dealing with acne, you are more than your skin. You are beautiful inside and out.