TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of Miscarriages
I’m the person that spends three weeks trying to find the most perfect, most sentimental gift.
I am not a gift card or last minute gift giver. This constant quest of mine has led me to some really amazing companies that create gifts you will cherish for a lifetime.
My most recent gift giving hunt was for myself.
I wanted something to celebrate the long journey we have gone through. Something that was a constant reminder of how much strength I discovered in myself. Something that I can carry with me at all times.
And for me, that gift was a Tiny Tags necklace.
We have had a hell of a journey. And during the last two years, I became someone totally new. Someone I never knew I was capable of being. I not only became more compassionate, but I discovered this fire and fight in me. A fight to have a healthy baby. A fire to stay alive and not crumble. A fight to take on everything I’m thrown with grace.
I’m not perfect though. I have cried, screamed, laid in bed for three days, and have had full blown panic attacks. But every single time I wiped away the tears, cleaned up the blood, or took the dreaded shots to my belly, and began again.
My journey is not something I would wish on anyone. But now that we have danced through the storm, I am grateful for it. And that’s why my Tiny Tags necklace is something I will cherish my entire life.
It’s a simple, yet elegant 14k gold necklace with Addyson’s name on the front and her birth date on the back.
Those two things mean so much more to me than just the tiny human I created.
Her name is a reminder of how many times I fought through miscarriages to get her here.
Her birthdate is a reminder of what I overcame & the pain I endured to birth a beautiful, healthy girl.
July 26th, 2019 is not only the day she was born, but the day a newborn mother was born.
So wearing my Tiny Tags necklace isn’t just to celebrate my babe, but to celebrate our journey together.
I said I was going to keep all 750 shots as a reminder of my journey but I think this will work instead.
I am ready to toss out the shots and close the chapter for good. But I will never forget.
And on the days I feel like a bad mom, I want to pull my hair out, or maybe drop her off at the fire station for a short visit, I will be reminded of how much I overcame & how I can overcome this too.
You can learn more and shop their beautiful variety of necklaces here.
Thanks for reading and remember no matter what your journey entails of, you are strong and you are a warrior.